I did some self-digging a while back and found that one of the hidden roots to this problem stems from the fact that my dad passed away when I was in the 8th grade, so having a male in my life to talk through things is like a security blanket. And carrying around a blanket for a gal my age is a bit much.
So, in keeping in line with of my life changing moves (and being slightly urged/encouraged by my friends) I am starting a singleness season.
For the next six months, I am not allowed to date anyone. Not to say that if the perfect for me person comes along, I can't be friends with him, but no one on one dates/talk on the phone every day kind of relationships for me.
I need time to discover who I am without another person. To grow independently.
To be honest, I am scared to death that 25-year-old me is going to just die alone (I jokingly/not really jokingly say to my mother every time a guy and I break up). But, I need to learn that it is important just to be me.
So folks, over the course of the next few months I will begin all kinds of new journeys, a new town, a new job, a new apartment and a new season of singleness which is the one that truly scares me the most. I have some goals that I
will try to will accomplish during this time that I can't wait share with you soon!