Art by Cliff Wassmann |
It is in my nature to achieve, to get things done, so not having a job to be productive at is starting to take its tole on my heart.
Everyday my quest continues to find the correct career path, but I felt like something was amiss since I started my time of rest. Something was tugging and crying to be discovered, but I couldn't place my hand quite on it.
Then I started reading a book that my friend Leah mentioned called 24/6, which is about remembering the Sabbath and how important and holy, a day of rest is in our lives.
It clicked, God has given me this opportunity to rest and to chase after him, but instead I have been racing trying to find my own path and filling up my time with random garbage. I now have time to read His word more, spend time meditating and praying. All things that I have said I would do more of, if I only had more time.
I was given the gift of more time, and I wasn't using it. I was just working for my own gain, and it left me feeling empty. After the realization of my stupidity, I am bound and determined to not feel sorry for myself for the lack of achievement of a job at this moment, but instead use this time of rest to trust Him and learn more about the Maker of the world.